The Benefits of Being Raised by an Alcoholic Mom
I read this article and it scares me to think what my young daughters are going through with my alcoholism. They're going to pull away, constantly knowing that whether now or later, their trust in me is going to get smashed into a million tiny pieces. Because that's what just happened. We had come such a long way and then I do it again. We made so many good repairs and crossed so many challenges, and then I.. me.. myself.. I destroy it all. I destroy the hearts of the two people I love the most in my life.
My promises are empty. I'm building a track record and a reputation. I'm becoming that alcoholic mom you read about. The one you kinda want to feel sorry for but at the same time feel angry at for doing it again and again. From outside, it looks like I don't care. From my little girls' hearts, it looks like I don't care.
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